Also painted sheets to depicted the fear of disease.
Feeling like these pieces are fine but they do little to support my emotional motivation for making artwork. there is little of me or my personal experience intertwined. I feel like a tourist when discussing diease in that I have remained healthy and people closest to me are fairly healthy. There is a level of fear and lack of control that i would like to address but it is not pervasive. I feel like I am making more a social statement rather than a personal one. In turn, I am not as invested in these works and I think it shows.
I am starting to realize that perhaps it is more the meanings we have placed on the organs, the metaphors associated with anatomy that I am really in love with. Furthermore the intersection of mental processes and its effect on anatomy and physiological function is really where I would like to be heading.
Making work for me has always been the best when I treated it like an extension of a journal. My challenge as I see it now is trying to make work that is accessible to others when it comes from my head and my experiences.
I have met with my mentor twice in the last month and we agreed to start meeting every 2 weeks. my frustration level has been so high we thought it would keep me on track to meet more often to hash stuff out. We are meeting again next week.
To tie up the work I have been doing I am finishing a series in which I examine the physical formal qualities of the organs that i am so drawn to and just create my own set of organs using that formal framework. Working through this task has led me to further realize that it isn't the organ and its formal qualities on its own but the intersection of the function and the other metaphors that go along with it.
From last weekend rough shaped organs.